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January 21, 2007
focus & intention
happy sunday, to you all! we just got back from surfing in the country. a truly enlightening experience for all of us. needless to say, i've been all over the place these past few months, or shall i say years since we've lived out here in hawaii. there are so many options, so many possibilities...a lot of the times running around like a chicken with my head cut off, enjoying every minute of my self-absorbed life. coming to the islands has been about so many things...one of them to escape what we used to be, to get lost into whomever we want to be and it all comes back to our roots. acknowledging our roots, blossoming from our solid base in so many different directions...that is what what my family is to me.
and so, single fin & i decide to do dawn patrol up at the north shore. we just wanted to surf our worries away, be lost in the big, deep blue ocean...be in the moment. no clinging onto the past, no worries about the future, completely immersed into the present...that is what surfing does for us. it is our temple, our meditation in motion.
anyway, the beginning of my surf session wasn't so good, as far as optimal wave catching. sitting out deep with the 50 something baby boomers, trying to be away from the crowd. i try to find my little place of peace in the ocean, amidst the chaos of the sea of people...so i strategically place myself way out deep. so there i am, with my 9'0" buddha board...looking into the ocean, watching whales throw their bodies up into the air, playfully wagging their tails in the water, seeing sea turtles mate, and paddling my heart & soul out for waves, as old "geezers" yell to me, telling me how i should paddle, when i should paddle. and there it was, my wave...a classic, picture perfect big ass wave just for me. i turned my board slightly, then stopped. i let it go by. ugh!!! i thought someone else would catch it and i'd catch the next one. nope. and there's single fin yelling to me that i should've caught that one. i was pissed!! and then proceeded to yell back at him that i didn't like this break & was tired of a-holes (all the men) telling me what to do, excluding him.
angry & frustrated at everyone and in reality, it was at myself, i paddled in on the inside, got thrown around, did some deep breathing and yoga on the water...then got myself back in the game. i was focused on what was really important. i'm out there to catch waves, not escape. no more worrying about everyone else, listening to everyone else's issues...head down and paddled with focus and intention.
yay!!! i caught a big ass wave, double over head, carved sharply into the wall, hugging it close, yelled at an old geezer to get off MY WAVE...that was it!!! listened to my gut/intuition and went with it. a lesson that i'm constantly working with. i thank you, deeply from the bottom of my heart, single fin for inspiring on so many levels, especially to listen to my gut feeling, all the while using my heart. i love you!!!
~namaste
Posted by soul sista' at January 21, 2007 02:12 PM