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June 23, 2007
love & healing
happy saturday to you all! it's been a nice one for me, so far. slept in till 6am (funny, huh?), rolled out of bed, spent some bonding time on my meditation cushion, then packed the volvo wagon, ready to go on a hike and/or surf.
i ended up hiking up our usual koko crater hike, only this time with a different twist to it. it's amazing how much comes up for me on my solo hikes, which i used to do all the time in the pacific northwest. it's rare that i am ever by myself out here. and so i truly relish these moments when i can just be with me.
being so mindfully present with each step i take, going up the stairs, that puts a pretty good burning on your ass and quads, then walked gently along the crater ridge, this time all the way to the end and down into the koko crater botanical garden. unsure of where each step will lead, but fully open to the moment.
thoughts of healing came up for me during this time, as i came in and out of being present, depending on the terrain. the new millineum was a huge turning point in my life. it was a time when life as i knew it was pulled out from underneath me. it was during my second year of naturopathic medical school, where i questioned everything that was before me. that was a time, when i had to finally let go of what all the concepts that i hung onto so tightly, including my relationship at the time.
that was the time that i found out that i had a chronic liver condition, that could ultimately in the end lead to hepatocellular cancer. for the last seven years, it has been an amazing journey of healing from deep within. my medicine, that i practice, gives to me on so many levels. my health is my gift. for without this condition, i never would have been on this path of healing, of following what is true for me. i live my life to its fullest each day. i strive to become strong in my body, as well as my mind. i am learning to soften and surrender more and more each day. practicing loving kindness, compassion and forgiveness upon myself has been one of the hardest lessons to learn. and those that we love so dearly, has always been a reflection of myself. when i am not fully living my truth, that is when i feel down. i have realized that beyond nutrition, exercise, taking supplements, that healing comes from a deeper place inside.
after my first year of practice, we spent some time in india to celebrate my official year of residency. i have had the honor of meeting with the dalai lama's attending physician. so many of his words resonate with me deep within. but the most powerful was, "when the mind is at peace, is when the body will heal itself." how very true.
and so i am on this path to find peace within my mind. it is our minds, our ego, and our insecurities that cause us suffering. i come from a place of love for all, for humanity. i have learned a lot about myself being out here in hawaii about love. love is something that you cannot hang onto too tightly, if you squeeze it, it will suffocate. the more you cling onto it, the more you end up suffering because of it. love is without boundaries. love is something so beautiful that it deserves to be shared. i believe that love & healing go hand in hand.
~much love & peace to you all
Posted by soul sista' at June 23, 2007 03:15 PM