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November 08, 2007
traveling
"the tiny figure moving on the path through this beautiful landscape is not concerned about the goal. he or she knows that the journey is the goal, the pilgrimage itself is the sacred place. each step on the path is important in itself.
when this card appears in a reading, it indicates a time of movement and change. it may be a physical movement from one place to the next, or an inner movement from one way of being to another. but whatever the case, this card promises that the going will be easy and will bring a sense of adventure and growth; there is no need to struggle or plan too much. the traveling card also reminds us to accept and embrace the new, just as when we travel to another country with a different culture and environment than the one we are accustomed to. this attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.
life is a continuity always and always. there is no final destination it is going towards. just the pilgrimage, just the journey in itself is life, not reaching to some point, no goal-just dancing and being in pilgrimage, moving joyously, without bothering about any destination. what will you do by getting to a destination? nobody asked this, because everybody is trying to have some destination in life. but the implications...if you really reach the destination of life, then what? then you will look very embarassed. nowhere to go...you have reached to the final destination-and in the journey you have lost everything. you had to lose everything. so standing naked at the final destination, you will look all around like an idiot: what was the point? you were hurrying so hard, and you were worrying so hard, and this is the outcome.
Posted by soul sista' at 09:25 AM | Comments (0)
November 07, 2007
sharing
i did my zen osho tarot card spread this morning...my "what is needed for resolution" card was SHARING.
"the queen of fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. it doesn't even occur to her to take inventories or to put something aside for later. she dispenses her treasures without limits, welcoming all and sundry to partake of the abundance, fertility and light that surrounds her. when you draw this card, it suggests that you too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. and in sharing, you find that you feel even more full. there is no need to go anywhere or to make any special effort. you find that you can enjoy sensuality without possessiveness or attachment, can give birth to a child or to a new project with an equal sense of creativity fulfilled. everything around you seems to be 'coming together' now. enjoy it, ground yourself in it, and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.
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November 05, 2007
humbled
spending a little time in the north shore with my computer, as well as the surf. a good day today, surf in the north shore and the south shore.
i've been playing in the country a little more, just to get a different feel of the island. surfing lots of random different breaks and meeting lots of old living legend surfers. it's a whole different world. i surfed holten's, and a couple of breaks out in mokuleia, the northern most end of the north shore. i did a morning session at this break called "sunset". have been feeling melancholy this past week-end. the weather doesn't seem to help either. it's been gray and rainy. i can't believe i survived seattle for as long as we did :)
anyway, good size waves...feeling a bit more confident surfing bigger waves. and then i decided to catch a wave that i wasn't supposed to. i got a chance to be up close and personal with "boneyards". extremely reefy...the white wash decided to drag me up into the reef chest first. blood everywhere. i look like i got into a really bad cat fight, a cat with a 100 claws. lesson learned. and then to top it all off, i caught a 10 foot wave after it. funny how life works.
surfing has been a nice escape for me here. it has made me face some of my deepest fears. it has made me strong. and yet it has allowed me to surrender and to be humbled on so many levels...
"thank you, single fin for all that you are, all that you have given me, all that you have inspired in me, and all the strength & confidence you have instilled within me."
much love & alohas...
Posted by soul sista' at 02:14 PM | Comments (0)
The Invitation
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.
Posted by soul sista' at 08:32 AM | Comments (0)
November 02, 2007
"The Dance"
I have sent you my invitation,
the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living.
Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!”
Just stand up quietly and dance with me.
Show me how you follow your deepest desires,
spiraling down into the ache within the ache,
and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward
to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day.
Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart.
Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.
Tell me a story of who you are,
and see who I am in the stories I live.
And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.
Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day.
Show me you can risk being completely at peace,
truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment,
and again in the next and the next and the next. . .
I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring.
Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall,
the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will.
What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness?
And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving
those we once loved out loud.
Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance,
the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart.
And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again.
Show me how you take care of business
without letting business determine who you are.
When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price,
let us remind each other that it is never about the money.
Show me how you offer to your people and the world
the stories and the songs
you want our children’s children to remember.
And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world,
but to love it.
Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude,
knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging.
Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words,
holding neither against me at the end of the day.
And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest
intentions has died away on the wind,
dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale
of the breath that is breathing us all into being,
not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within.
Don’t say, “Yes!”
Just take my hand and dance with me.
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